Everytime I talk to fd who is supposed to be my boyfriend...im in tears. But not the im-so-in-love-with-you and whats-going-wrong-with-us...kind of tears. I know in my heart...i do love him but i dont knowhow much im IN love with him. I love having him there to open up to and talk to beacuse he has been so great to me. But i know i am not giving him what i know he should be getting from me,
He is an amazing guy...but i dont know how much of that is real for me. I keek thinking hes not being honest with me so i wont let myself fall for him.
I dont know.......